The posts on this blog have all but stopped, not as a result of lack of boredom but unfortunately because I couldn't find the time. How can I be occupied and yet be bored you ask. I am in this state because I have enrolled in a program which shall equip me to progressively leverage my core competencies through credibly meshed goal-oriented courses. Yes you have guessed it right, I am doing an MBA.
A year has passed since the festivities and the celebrations of having secured a seat in the IIMs. Having spent a year in the extreme weather of Lucknow and experiencing similar variations in work, fun, boredom, globe, bakkar......I think I am finally beginning to understand what MBA is about. However this post is not about what MBA is, and what you should do in college and all that gyan, this is about my current state of mind.
I have always tried to be a good Hyderabadi kid (I am no longer a kid though), the guys who go for coaching , JEE , CAT, everything planned. In other words if some HR dude were to ask me my short term and Long term goals in my 6th standard I would promptly reply with - IIT is my short term goal and IIM long term, hell I could chart out a timeline with a clearly defined action plan to achieve those goals too. This I attribute to the schooling/coaching system that prevailed in Hyderabad back when I was a kid. But now that I have fallen, crawled, jogged along the path and have almost reached the last leg I no longer have a target or a plan. I feel directionless and lost but at the same time I feel liberated, it is the first time I have nothing that I want to become nowhere that I want to be, the system has run its course. The future is truly uncertain and I have no specific expectations. It will still take time for my mind to accept this state and truly enjoy and feel the freedom, to let go of the future.
The future is uncertain and I feel directionless but I am slowly beginning to accept and enjoy it. Going with the flow as they say :P
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