It has been a rough past few weeks nothing seems to be going right (to shed light on the subject..........it has been placement season and I belonging to the self proclaimed elitist group of ECE engineers with a decent academic background and more than average communication skills hoped to get lapped up by this point in time...), while everybody I know has had something astonishingly marvelous happening to them (I am not exaggerating.....by marvelous I mean getting a seat in the top most colleges in the country and abroad, some getting into companies at the top of the Industry with packages close to 7 figures!!) people from all the other branches who were masquerading around as engineers in groups perpetually high on fun and laughter have been placed in top firms with average packages higher than what most ECE guys have had a shot at....... Well we can say I have been congratulating people a lot and so far have warranted none.
My parents and friends seem concerned, I have been asked to take it easy, calm down and not get tensed, now and again people come up with cliched phrases like "everything happens for a reason" and "there are better things in store for you"........ At a time when being me and being happy or just not unhappy seems to be almost immoral, while most of my branch-mates who are in similar plight seem distraught,angry....depressed, I feel disconnected, I don't mean to say I am not angry or sad.......I am no hermit but I don't feel them as often as I should, maybe its because I have had this kind of feeling in the past......well u do feel helpless when some decision you had taken or something you had done in the past comes back to bite you on your ass, but there is nothing you can do about it. All I know is I am definitely not happy but saying I am depressed seems to be stretching it too far.
I think everything is preplanned and there is very little we can do to change things, of- course that doesn't mean we do not try. I guess we just have to go through life and hope to strike a good patch some time soon......... if at all, meanwhile all we can do is try to enjoy the process whenever we can......all of this sounds really philosophical, but then philosophy has its roots in real life experiences........ah I have now understood why I am supposed to get wiser as I grow older (dekho to kitna gyaan jhada hua hai yahan :p).
Well I hope this disconnection,blankness or what ever it is leads to anger or ignites the long lost fire and dedication to study harder and try harder to get that all elusive success.......
P.S Adnan sami's song comes to mind here kaise kaiso ko diya hai aise waiso ko diya hai..........mujhko bhi to lift karade................. very cheesey to say the least :P
My parents and friends seem concerned, I have been asked to take it easy, calm down and not get tensed, now and again people come up with cliched phrases like "everything happens for a reason" and "there are better things in store for you"........ At a time when being me and being happy or just not unhappy seems to be almost immoral, while most of my branch-mates who are in similar plight seem distraught,angry....depressed, I feel disconnected, I don't mean to say I am not angry or sad.......I am no hermit but I don't feel them as often as I should, maybe its because I have had this kind of feeling in the past......well u do feel helpless when some decision you had taken or something you had done in the past comes back to bite you on your ass, but there is nothing you can do about it. All I know is I am definitely not happy but saying I am depressed seems to be stretching it too far.
I think everything is preplanned and there is very little we can do to change things, of- course that doesn't mean we do not try. I guess we just have to go through life and hope to strike a good patch some time soon......... if at all, meanwhile all we can do is try to enjoy the process whenever we can......all of this sounds really philosophical, but then philosophy has its roots in real life experiences........ah I have now understood why I am supposed to get wiser as I grow older (dekho to kitna gyaan jhada hua hai yahan :p).
Well I hope this disconnection,blankness or what ever it is leads to anger or ignites the long lost fire and dedication to study harder and try harder to get that all elusive success.......
P.S Adnan sami's song comes to mind here kaise kaiso ko diya hai aise waiso ko diya hai..........mujhko bhi to lift karade................. very cheesey to say the least :P
